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Prayer Changes Things

3/22/2025

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Musings from my Journal

In Psalm 71, the author (most believe it to be David in his later years, perhaps during Absalom's rebellion), began by petitioning the Lord for answers to his difficulties. Interestingly enough, he ends the psalm by praising God for the answers even though those answers had not come yet. How can you pray something and in the same prayer, thank God as if you had already received what you prayed for?

​Hmmmm...that sounds like a scripture I see in Mark 11:24. Many treat this verse as if it's toxic, as if it was written by some prosperity preacher, but it's wasn't. These words are in RED in my Bible, which means Jesus Himself said them. In Mark 4:22, Jesus begins a discourse on the prayer of faith. Yes, that's a thing that goes all the way back to Biblical times and is essential to the Christian life today, at least that is what I believe, based on this passage. It didn't start with Christian TV.  So many trip over these verses and say they are "name it, claim it" verses, but they aren't. They are simply what Jesus said. Just because it is not our experience all the time does not negate, diminish or relegate them to a place that we never talk about. They're there and we need to deal with them honestly. They are part of the whole counsel of God.

David had a big problem, so he prayed. He prayed a prayer of faith. He told God his problem, asked for the Lord's help, and thanked God for the answer that he knew was already his, even though there was no physical manifestion. It did come, but not until some time after, but in the meantime, David was at peace because he knew God would answer. We all know that prayer answers are always a spiritual reality before they are a physical manifestation. When Daniel prayed, his answer was delayed due to spiritual warfare in the heavenlies, but the angel told Daniel, from the moment you prayed, God answered. God immediately responded to Daniel's plea. However, it took 21 days for that answer to reach Daniel. 

Now, back to David in Psalm 71. David knew that, now please get this, PRAYER CHANGES THINGS! Prayer is our main weapon against the enemy of our souls! When we connect with God in prayer, much power becomes available. James 5:16 say that the effectual prayer of a righteous man availeth much...it makes much power available, one translation says! In this, we also see the qualifier, you MUST be righteous.

There are several reasons for unanswered prayer which I don't have time to go into. This verse is saying that if you are righteous, if you believe in the power of prayer and the willingness of God to keep His Word, and if you are praying the will of God from a pure, sinless heart that desires to see God glorified-even more than you want the anwer, you will recieve the answer to your prayer. Yes, that's a tall order but doable through the Spirit that resides within us.

So many times, we make up excuses or lean into theologies that are counter to what the scriptures plainly say, when our experience doesn't line up with what the Bible clearly states. We explain away, twist, skip over, or put the "God is Sovereign" sticker on whatever seems to be at odds with our current understanding and experience. What might happen if we just honestly went before the Lord and admitted that maybe, just maybe, we were wrong or we missed something when situations don't turn out the way scripture states they will or when all Hell is breaking out in our lives? When the disciples could not cast out the devils, they were told that fasting and prayer were needed to accomplish this. Prayer and fasting are spiritual disciplines that strengthen and cultivate a closer relationship with God. Perhaps, they needed a more mature faith to see these answers to prayer. A more mature faith more easily discerns the will of God, enabling us to pray in faith that we are praying that perfect will of God, which is what Jesus is saying will bring prayer answers. 

Now, you might think I'm full of cow fluff, and that's okay. These are, after all, just my musings and thoughts. However, they are also very much my experience. I don't see my prayers as a shot-in-the-dark-maybe-God-will-answer kind of practice. Often I will pray more about what God's Will is than I pray about the problem because I know that if I will pray God's will, He will answer. Where do we find God's will, you might ask? God's Word is God's will. We find all we need to know in God's Word. An accurate translation of Matthew 18:18 tells us that if we will loose or bind what has already been bound or loosed in heaven, it will be bond or loosed on the earth. That is coming into agreement with the will of God through the prayer of faith. Honestly I wonder how much I have suffered by not taking this more seriously when it is very plain in scripture because I put my "experience" above what is plainly written.  

Does this always work for me, honestly, no, but it has worked for me too many times to count. I know that God's thoughts are higher than mine, that I will never fully know the mind of God or understand all the workings of His plan in my short span of time on earth. I know that I miss it sometimes, that there are hidden things in my heart that may hinder answers to prayer.  I also know that living in the meantime believing that God hears our prayers and honors His Word is a much better way to live than to just allow myself to be the devil's punching bag and accept whatever happens as God's answer. For instance, I believe that it is not God's will that any man perish, yet people perish every day. God does not always get His way because of men's choices and beliefs get in His way. Seeing God's answer come to fruition sometimes takes prayer battles. I may be very laid back in the natural, but in my spirit, I'm a fighter. I'm that woman with the unjust judge and I'm open to hear from God when I'm missing it or when I just need to keep pressing in. 

I know many don't believe this way, and that's okay. That's up for them to sort out with God, but this way of thinking, believing and living has served me very well and I have seen God do miraculous and powerful things in my life as a result of believing prayer. God is not dead, nor is He far away. He wants to glorify His Name on the earth and show Himself strong. He starts by doing this in the lives of individuals who then testify of His greatness and power to the world. 




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What It's Like To Walk By The Spirit

2/25/2025

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1 John  5:13 "These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, so that you may know that you have eternal life."

"What does it mean to walk in the Spirit?" asked a young man in our small group. Many relegate this concept to the charasmatics and pentecostals, but if you have been born again, the Spirit of Christ lives in you and wants you to walk in Him. 

I'm not a theologian, but I have lived and walked with the Spirit of God for over 40 years. This is my definition. 

If we are born again we have the witness of the Spirit. Who is He a witness to? Himself? God? NO! To US! We should have the assurance of salvation not just because we prayed a prayer but because we are aware of the Spirit in us, in our reality. "His Spirit bears witness with our spirit that we are the children of God." Rm. 8:16 This is how we walk in the Spirit, because He is in us. So many think life in the Spirit is by some outside force, but it is not. It is by who dwells within us. Because of this, we have fellowship with the Spirit on a continual basis. Oh, to live with the reality that He lives in us-daily, minute by minute! That is life in the Spirit! 

We can be aware of His presence all day long! His Spirit bears witness with our spirit that we belong to Him. Being aware of His Spirit in us is the first step to walking in the Spirit. I don't have to "believe" through mental ascent, that I have right standing with God because of some decisions I made or prayer I prayed. I can experience the peace of my salvation because I sense and know His presence in my life. I can know and hear the voice of His Spirit as I acknowledge His presence in my body, day in and day out. This is fellowship with the Spirit, as He goes where I go, because He is IN me!

I heard a preacher say once that he had never once felt the Spirit, His religion was not based on feeling as if feelings in religion are a bad thing. His religion is all in His head, an egg head Christian. I can't remember ever feeling more sorry for anyone as I did for him when I heard that. Are all of his realtionships devoid of feeling? How terrible that would be. Friends, if we should have feelings in any relationship, it should be with the one who gave His life for us and who loves us with a perfect love. 

There have been times of distress where I have felt the peace of God literally flood over me like a warm giant wave enveloping me. Other times when His presence has been so sweet, I could do nothing but cry. Still other times, His Spirit has risen up in me in boldness and strength and given me a rebuke for the enemy who was trying to kill, steal, and destroy!  These times are precious to me because they solidify and reinforce to my heart and mind  the constant presence & indwelling of His Spirit in my life! And there have been times in my life where His presence and glory have been so strong that I could not stand, and I was awed by His power. Still other times when I did not know what to say and the Spirit's voice spoke out and it surprised even me and I wondered where it came from. But in every instance the Word accomplished what it was sent to do in spite of circumstances. I am constantly in awe of life in the Spirit, that the Holy Spirit of God has chosen to live in me, to be with me. 

All the things in 1 John were written to us THAT WE MIGHT KNOW that we have eternal life. That life is not something in the future. It is eternal, so it has to be now too! Our life with God begins when His Spirit comes to live inside of us! Our eternity has already begun. 

This is life in the Spirit. I have eternal life through the Spirit but I live that life IN the Spirit. Christian, acknowledge the Spirit that lives in you! Talk to Him. Listen for Him. Receive His witness. Live in fellowship with Him. Walk in the Spirit! It is why Jesus left the earth - to live with us by living IN us. He desires to have continal fellowship and relationship with us and we can have that by walking in the Spirit. 

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Hard to Kill

5/17/2024

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At a glance, this looks like an ordinary philodendron. Most people like them because they take a lot of neglect and they are hard to kill. They grow really quickly and they are simple and easy to reproduce. But let me tell you, this particular philodendron is no ordinary  houseplant. 

At one of my jobs, I worked in an eight foot cubicle. On the top of the cubicle wall there was a strip of plastic that held my wall and cubicle neighbor's wall together. Where the four cubicles intersected, there was a file cabinet in the cubie adjacent to mine and on top of that file cabinet was Gloria, the largest philodendren you have ever seen. Her vines stretched the length of two cubicles and were draped around two windows in our office. She was quite impressive. 

I was in a particularly dark time in my life. It was a struggle to go to work. I felt as if I was in the deepest, darkest valley I had ever walked through. I felt as if I might die. At times, i wished I was dead. There seemed to be no light at the end of my tunnel. One day, while standing by the wall that separated me from my office mate, I noticed a green leaf sticking out of the end of the plastic tubing holding the cubie walls together. Upon investigation, I discovered that one of Gloria's vines had crawled under the plastic and had grown 8 feet, between the two walls, under the plastic and out the other end. How in the world that happened, I do not know. 

There was no light in that tunnel of plastic, only darkness and the deepness of the wall. It had to have been in there for quite a while to have grown 8 feet in length without growing one leaf, until it reached the other side of the wall and came into the light of the room. We left it there and lo and behold, it grew another leaf. Then it started to die, so I pulled as much of the vine out of the plastic as I could and snipped it off. I put it in a jar of water under the flourescent light on my desk. In just a few short weeks, it sprouted several more leaves. 

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And soon after that, even more leaves. 
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Eventually, I put it in the pot that it's currently in. When the vines get too long, I snip them off and put them back in the dirt of the pot and another vine growns out. 

As I pondered the life of this plant, I realized that God was trying to teach me some things. 

1. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. Things will eventually change. We must not allow ourselves to fear the darnkess. Even in the darkest of places, when we feel the most lost and the most dead, change is happening. We are growing, if we are attached to the main vine and looking for the light of His promises. 

2. Valleys are not a place of weakness. The heartiness of that plant is what kept it alive while it traveled that distance to the other side of the wall. Not every kind of plant would have made it. If we are God's children, we have the heartiness of the Holy Spirit in us and we can make it though the longest, darkest, driest valley. 

3. Although we may end up somewhere different than where we thought, there can still be abundant joy and peace, and when we persevere and come out the other side, we can continue to grow and reproduce the life that we still have. 



4. If we drift too far from the root, we begin to die. So in times when we are broken, afraid, confused, discouraged, and hopeless, that is when we need to press in to the Lord even harder. He is still where we left Him. He has not left us. Psalm 84 speaks of this:

How blessed is the man whose strength is in You,
In whose heart are the highways to Zion!
Passing through the valley of Baca they make it a spring;
The early rain also covers it with blessings.
They go from strength to strength,
Every one of them appears before God in Zion.


Another translation states it this way:
How enriched are they who find their strength in the Lord; 
within their hearts are the highways of holiness! 
Even when their paths wind through the dark valley of tears,
they dig deep to find a pleasant pool where others find only pain.
He gives to them a brook of blessing
filled from the rain of an outpouring.
They grow stronger and stronger with every step forward,
and the God of all gods will appear before them in Zion.


That has certainly been my experience. Even in the midst of the darkest days and most terrifying nights, HIS PRESENCE has calmed me, and given me hope, comfort and sweet peace. Were my circumstances different? Nope! Was the situation different? Nope! But when He was there with me, I was different! God meets us in our valleys and in those broken moments is where He can work the most. That's where He skillfully, as a surgeon, removes things from our hearts and pours in the healing balm of His Spirit and grace. As a result, we go from strength to strength, just as His Word says. 

Do not fear the valleys of life. Embrace them when it appears that you are going to have to walk through, knowing that the God of all comfort is walking through with you. "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me. Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me!" Allow Him to accomplish His purposes in that valley and you will say with the psalmist, "The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing!" Praise the name of the Lord!



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God Will Show Himself Strong

5/5/2023

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Today was the deadline day for a writing project I took on. Although different from my usual writing style, I felt the nudging of the Holy Spirit to do it.

My assignment was to prove, from the gospels, that Jesus is trustworthy by expounding on Matthew 26:47-56, Judas and the mob. At first glance, I had no idea how the two were even remotely related.

My attention went immediately to the betrayal aspect. I researched passages referencing betrayal with still, no connection.

I lay late into the night pondering. I started to focus on Jesus instead of Judas and immediately, three words into my mind. They were progressive points AND they rhymed! I was done a day early!

THE MORAL OF THIS STORY:
When in difficult situations, don't focus on the problem or the obvious. Quiet yourself and look to Jesus. Once I switched my focus from the obvious to the Lord of the supernatural, direction came immediately.

Several years ago, I encountered a great trial. The Lord impressed upon me that HE is my ONLY source. I floundered for awhile while exhausting all other options, (i.e. wasted a lot of time/energy trying to "help" the Lord). It wasn't until my self-sufficiency got out of the way and I looked to God only, that everything was resolved, redeemed, and restored just as He had promised. (Ps. 130:7-8)

God doesn't need worldly wisdom or Google to show Himself strong. All He needs is a quiet heart and eyes turned towards Him.



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Leaving Anxiety Behind And Arriving At Peace

4/20/2023

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Did you ever have a Bible verse lift right off the page and give you a Gibb's slap and you sit there and have a Wow moment?

I was cruising along in Colossians chapter 3 when I got to verse 15 and BOOM, I had a revelation!
"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body: and be thankful."
Peace with God is what we get at salvation. Peace in God is what we have when we are in communion and close fellowship with God, abiding in His promises.

If you spend any amount of time on social media, you see all kinds of avenues that people are traveling trying to find peace in their innermost being. Even Christians struggle for that daily peace as their circumstances ebb and flow. More and more, we see articles geared toward Christians who have anxiety and fear. I'm not judging. I've been there.

I've had those nights when life has overwhelmed me and sleep evades me. I've cried to the Lord and told Him that I didn't care how things turn out, I just have to have peace and it has to be NOW! I've felt the heaviness of burdens so crushing that I didn't think I could last one more day. At that moment, I would have given anything just to have an hour of peace.

So as I looked at Colossians 3:15, I noticed some things I had never pondered before. First of all, as a member of the body of Christ, I am called to peace! It's part of my Kingdom inheritance. It's my birthright! "God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

Secondly, there is an implied pronoun. If you look at this text, it is actually saying "YOU let the peace of God rule in your hearts." All along, I've been asking for peace, praying for peace, and waiting for peace but according to this verse, it is already mine but I have a part to play in receiving it into my life. I have to "let" it rule in my heart.

God is not going to send a holy lightning bolt and zap me with peace. I have to let, to allow His peace,( my possession, my birthright, His provision already stored up for me), to rule in my heart. I have to open the door and let it in. I have to yield to peace over panic. I have to get "above" the turbulence and into the flow of Heaven. It's up to me!

This is as easy as a simple, yielding prayer.

Let's pray it together.

Father, I thank You that I not only have peace with You through the work of Your Son, Jesus Christ, but I have peace in You as part of what Christ died for me to have. Father, do not let one drop of that precious Blood spilled for me, go to waste in my life.
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Therefore, today, instead of panic, instead of fear, instead of anxiety, and instead of worry, I receive what is rightfully mine by your grace. I receive Your peace and I allow it free rule and reign in my heart, in my thoughts, and in my life. I take every thought captive that brings hopelessness, that makes me feel like a victim, or that tries to discourage me, and I replace it with the wonderful promise and provision of Your peace, ruling in my heart today. Thank you that "all of your promises are yes and amen to the glory of God" because I belong to you. 2 Cor. 1:20 Oh thank you, gracious God. In Jesus's name, Amen.

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Christ in YOUR Christmas Part 2

12/14/2022

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Today we continue our Mary musings. Last time we explored Mary's love and knowledge of God as a reason for God choosing her for perhaps the greatest mission ever completed by a human, outside of the life, death, and ressurection of Jesus. 

Today, I want to examine her responses to the things that happened in her life. When Mary was first approached by the Angel Gabriel, she was afraid. I would have been too! And the information she received couldn't have been easy to hear. Let's think about this. 

She was a virgin, pure in thought and body. She more than likely had a good reputation. She was engaged to be married and life was looking like it was working out pretty well. Then BOOM! She's pregnant and Mary's got some 'splaining to do. Can you even imagine what Joseph thought when she told him what sounded like the most cockamamie story he had ever heard? Seriously, what man would have believed that? It must have seemed that her marriage went right down the tubes. 

Then there's the little concern about the law of the land. In Jewish law, audultry was punishable by death. Although not married, engagement was more like marriage is in our culture and she would have been considered an adulteress. So now, she was facing a  life of disdain and reproach, if she managed to keep her head. And all of that for being completely innocent.

I don't know about you but that might have made me very angry and tempted to question the love of God. Afterall, she lived a pure life, she loved God and had kept herself according to His law and now God was placing her in the worst possible position that a woman could face in those days. 


(Meanwhile, a few months earlier, Mary's cousin Zacharius had also received some rather unbelievable news. He and his wife Elizabeth were going to have a baby after being barren for their entire lives. Zacharius argued with the angel since he and his wife were "old and stricken in years." As a result, the angel shut his mouth and caused him to be mute until the baby was born.) 

Now this is what is interesting to me. Both Zacharius and Mary questioned the angel. Zacharius doubted that it COULD happen at all while Mary only questioned only how it WOULD happen. "
And Mary said, Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word."

Now, let's bring this home. When your life completely falls apart, when God allows hardship, loss, and devastation to invade your life, when He changes the total trajectery of your plans, goals and dreams, how do you respond? Do you, like Mary automatically respond "behold the handmaid of the Lord" or do you argue with Him trying to convince Him that this is not a welcome change? Do you consider yourself blessed as Mary did or do you begin to grow suspicious of God and His love? Are you so in love with God that your faith in His Divine plan causes you to submit to Him once again in total trust and humility? Are you okay withyour life will looking nothing like you imagined? Are you willing to give up all the blessings you have in order to do what the Lord is calling you to?

Are you a doubter or a questioner? Are you a Zacharius or a Mary?
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Christ in YOUR Christmas Part 1

12/9/2022

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 What do you do to keep Christ in YOUR Christmas? It is so easy to get caught up in all the trappings and responsibilities (some self-imposed) of the season, so to keep Christ in my own personal Christmas, I ponder one aspect of the Christmas account in scripture each year. 

In the past I have focused on the miracle and implications of the incarnation, the different Bible characters, how God chose to speak to men throughout that time, the supernatural events that involved nature, and others. This year, I chose Mary, the mother of Jesus. 

Although I identify most with the Apostle Peter before Pentecost on a personal level, (sincere but lacking wisdom, impulsive, and generally blundering my way through life), the person I aspire to be like is Mary.

Out of all the women God could have chosen to not only birth the Saviour, but raise Him, God chose Mary. I want to be the kind of woman that God could choose for such an important assignment, don't you?

In the next couple of blogs, I want to take a look at the characteristics that made Mary the kind of woman that God could choose to use! 

Mary KNEW and LOVED God.

She attended the synagogue and was educated in the scriptures as much as all the women of her day were. She had heard the prophesies concerning the coming Messiah. She knew that He would be born of a virgin. I'm sure she never imagined that she would be that virgin, yet still, she believed God's Word would come to pass and she was waiting for it. From the words she spoke both to the angel and in a moment of praise, we can see that Mary was a God worshipper. He was no stranger to her. 

By the time she reached Elizabeth's house, we see that she had fully comprehended and embraced being God's choice to mother the promised Messiah. In a spontaneous moment, her praise of God burst forth from her spirit as she declared; 
  

Luke 1:46b
“My soul exalts the Lord,
47 And my spirit has rejoiced in God my Savior.
48 For He has had regard for the humble state of His bond-servant;
For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed.
49 For the Mighty One has done great things for me;
And holy is His name.
50 And His mercy is to generation after generation
Toward those who fear Him.
51 He has done mighty deeds with His arm;
He has scattered those who were proud in the thoughts of their hearts.
52 He has brought down rulers from their thrones,
And has exalted those who were humble.
53 He has filled the hungry with good things,
And sent the rich away empty-handed.
54 He has given help to His servant Israel,
In remembrance of His mercy,
55 Just as He spoke to our fathers,

To Abraham and his descendants forever.”


In order to be used of God, I must know Him! I must love His voice and be responsive to His leadings. I must believe that God is still working in the world and using women to bring about the fulfillment of His plan for this sick and dying world. I must be like Mary. 

Oh that God would fine tune my character to the point that He could use me for such a grave and glorious assignment. Oh that He would cause His revelation to be so real in my heart that praise would burst forth from my mouth everytime I meditate on it. Oh, to be used as Mary was for whatever purpose God has planned for my life. 





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To Know Christ in His Fullness, We Must First be Empty Ourselves

10/13/2022

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Charles Spurgeon wrote, “You will never know the fullness of Christ until you know the emptiness of everything else but Christ.”
We ask God to fill us but are we willing to empty ourselves so that He has something to fill? We cannot be full of Christ and full of worldly pleasures.
When our stomach is empty, we hunger for nourishment. When our spirit is empty of self, then we can hunger for Him. And when we hunger for Him, He “…will not allow the righteous to hunger…” He will fill us.
To know His fullness, our eyes must be fixed solely on Him, our ears must be attuned to hear only His voice, our hands must be empty to receive from Him, and our hearts must be set squarely on nothing but Him. We must lay everything else down.
Until we realize that earthly pleasures will ultimately and regularly bring disappointment, that they can disappear as quickly as a puff of smoke, we cannot see the need for the fullness of Christ nor do we have room for Him to fill us. So God will allow disappointments.
Those disappointments of life are God’s way of emptying us so that we can be filled with Him alone.
Until we realize that no relationship, no amount of wealth or fame or influence, can fully satisfy, we cannot know the fullness, the complete and total satisfaction, joy, and peace that can only be found in Christ.
Solomon summed up earthly pleasures and pursuits this way, “Vanity of vanities,” says the Preacher, “Vanity of vanities! All is vanity.”
Jesus said, “I am the true vine….Abide in Me…These things I have spoken so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full.” (John 15:1-11)
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I've Been in the Valley

10/7/2022

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Did you ever feel the Lord doing something deep and extensive and revolutionary in your heart but you just can't put your finger on all of what it is? Do you sit in quiet with Him to discover it and feel the giddiness, like a child at Christmas, of waiting to see what He is doing in you? Can you feel it stirring as you go through the day? Does it captivate your thoughts as you lay awake in the early morning hours? That's where I have been these last couple of months. Well, that, and on vacation. (And it was wonderful too! (#40yearshitched)

In my next couple of entries here, I will be sharing where I’ve been, since some of you are asking, and what I've learned of God along the way.

Where have I been? I’ve Been In The Valley
For the choir director; on the Gittith. A Psalm of the sons of Korah.
84How lovely are Your dwelling places,
O Lord of hosts!
2 My soul longed and even yearned for the courts of the Lord;
My heart and my flesh sing for joy to the living God.
3 The bird also has found a house,
And the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young,
Even Your altars, O Lord of hosts,
My King and my God.
4 How blessed are those who dwell in Your house!
They are ever praising You. Selah.
5 How blessed is the man whose strength is in You,
In whose heart are the highways to Zion!
6 Passing through the valley of Baca they make it a spring;
The early rain also covers it with blessings.
7 They go from strength to strength,
Every one of them appears before God in Zion.
8 O Lord God of hosts, hear my prayer;
Give ear, O God of Jacob! Selah.
9 Behold our shield, O God,
And look upon the face of Your anointed.
10 For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand outside.
I would rather stand at the threshold of the house of my God
Than dwell in the tents of wickedness.
11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
The Lord gives grace and glory;
No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
12 O Lord of hosts,
How blessed is the man who trusts in You!

I've been through some very long, deep, dark valleys these last couple of years. I've known fear, shame, heartbreak, loss, anger, and pain so great that I didn't think I would ever recover from it. I've felt as if I was living in an alternate universe and questioned my own thoughts, sanity, and even my faith. I made some of the biggest decisions I've ever had to make with little or no approval from my friends, those I went to for counsel, or family.
I went against "the grain", allowing myself to be in vulnerable positions but holding to the hope and promise that God had spoken to me, in prayer and by other means, about my situation.

When you face life's battles, you will get well-meaning, It-makes-sense, I-can-show-you-in-the-Bible-advice from those who love you and care deeply for your welfare. Even though I loved them for it, I knew that God was leading me in a different direction and that no one but me would have to live with the results of my decisions. Therefore, I had to make sure I obeyed God at all costs.

(In Acts 20, a similar thing happened to Paul. Those who were in the Spirit warned him of the dangers he would be facing if he went to Jerusalem but Paul knew in his spirit that it was the will of God to do so, even though much hardship and even death might await him.)
You see, 39 years ago my heart "found a house...even Your altars, O Lord of hosts." So even in this valley, I sought His voice and He spoke very loudly to me. He truly was my sun and shield in ways I had never known before.

I passed through the valley of Baca (weeping) and my tears became to me a spring. As one translation puts it, I DUG DEEP and found "a pleasant pool where others find only pain." With each step I took, I could say "Jesus is with me. I will not fear. I can trust Him” even though my knees were wobbling and my heart was trembling.

He took me from strength to strength as He gently guided me through the valley and into the light.

When my foot slipped, He caught me.

When my faith waned, He quickened my embattled spirit and refreshed my weary soul.

And when I finally said, "Lord, I'm done, I can't do this one more day", He said, "Ah, finally, I've been waiting on you to get your hands completely off of this situation so that I can do what I promised you." And He did just what He said He would do. Praise His Holy Name!

And that was the lesson that He wanted me so much to get. Although it was the hardest time of my life and one I never want to repeat, I would not now trade it for anything easier.

I learned that there are some things that the Lord can only get to us when we're in the valleys of life. We have to let go of all that we think we possess. I learned to treasure His workings by focusing on His Person instead of the problems. He put every part of my faith to the test. He picked my life apart. I didn't always pass the tests the first time, but fortunately, the Lord allows re-takes and He's a great study partner.

I learned that God is TRULY GOOD. HE IS! It was a process. I had to get to the revelation that 1. God is good. 2. God is good to me. 3. God is good at being God. (Thank you, Lysa Terkeurst)

No longer do I say it but in the back of my mind think, "Well then, why is this happening to me?" He's always up to something good even in the midst of the turmoil of life and the attacks of the devil.

As a Christian, you might be saying "DUH, I already know that." But for me, I found out that profession is not possession. It's not until life implodes that we truly find out what we possess as Christians. I thank God for all that I can possess in Him and that when I needed it, He got it to me. I'm not the easiest of students, but He is patient and LONGsuffering and eventually, the light came on in my stubborn heart and joy flooded my life.
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I no longer fear valleys nor do I see them as I once did. He will always give "grace and glory" to those who walk with Him, no matter what path He has chosen for you to walk.
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God's Tracks

5/6/2022

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Does God leave tracks? According to Psalm 23, He does. In verse 3 it says, "He guides me in the paths of righteousness." That word, paths, can be translated tracks.

Tracks vs paths, what's the difference? Tracks indicate that something or someone has has already walked the way that you are going lately. They aren't very far ahead of you. They've already been where you are headed. God, Jehovah Jireh, the one who provides, sees and provides every provision that we will need as He goes before us. When we get to where He's already been, we lack nothing!

In this Psalm, the tracks lead us straight into the Valley of the Shadow of death. We need not fear, God walks WITH us! He comforts us, protects us, and feeds us there. We aren't in the Valley of Death, we're in the valley of the shadow​ of death. The thing about shadows is that they often cast a much bigger image than the actual object that is causing them, distorting their actual size and shape.

A few years ago, I was mowing and a shadow the size of a 747 jet  swooped over my head. It surprised me so much that I ducked! I thought a plane must be flying too low or in trouble. When I looked up, I saw a Blue Heron soaring along the woods edge. The Heron's  shadow was much larger than the actual bird. I thought a jet was crashing. I wonder if he laughed when he saw me duck in fear at his shadow? 

Satan loves it when we look at the shadows and fear. In that valley, things loom large and dark. We must remember that behind every shadow is the light. Goodness, mercy, and the faithfulness of God will follow us all the days of our lives if we belong to Him, even if we are in a valley. David also said, "The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom should I fear? The Lord is the defense of my life: Whom should I dread? (Ps. 118:27) In Psalm 139:12, He said "Even darkness is not dark to You, And the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and Light are alike to you." Why? Because God is above it all! He sees what we cannot see. He knows what we will only find out as we walk though. 

Are you in a valley? What should you do? Dig a well!

Psalm 84 says, "Blessed is the person whose strength is in You, In whose heart are the roads to Zion! Passing through the Valley of Baca, they make it a spring; The early rain also covers it with blessings. They go from strength to strength, Every one of them appears before God in Zion."

One version I read says, "Even when their paths wind through the dark valley of tears, they dig deep to find a pleasant pool where other find only pain. He gives to them a brook of blessing filled from the rain of an outpouring." I love this! 

Imagine finding the Brook of Blessing in the Valley of Tears, outpoured from the very hand of God! All we need to do is dig deep, hold tight, and keep walking. At the end of every dark valley, there is light. At the end of every shadow, there is the warmth of the sun. In and through and out of everything, there is God! Follow His tracks!





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