God was good to me this year. I had one picked out but frankly, I don't remember what it was now. That is because God gave me a "Word" that will last me a lifetime and which, although not identified in a word, has been and forever will be my heart's desire. At the beginning of the year, I had so much stirring in my heart but I just couldn't find words to describe what I was feeling.
Than one Sunday, my Pastor read a quote from Tom Alexander, an unfamous preacher who had a short lived life and ministry in Scotland. It read:
In some people's lives, Jesus Christ has no place.
In many Christian's lives, Jesus Christ has a prominent place.
But in a few Christian's lives, Jesus Christ has a preeminent place.
The word "preemmince" exploded in my heart to the point that had I not quickly remembered that I was sitting in church, would have come right out of my mouth in a burst of excitement.
In the last decade, I have experienced just about every kind of human trauma one can experience. In those years my life ebbed and flowed like tornado, a hurricane, a typhoon, and an earthquake all in one. Coming through that and looking back, I see that the one constant in it all was God. "He is before all things, and in HIM all things hold together." (Colossians 1:17) He certainly was the only thing that held me together.
With Him, I walked the darkest valleys and as Psalm 84 so eloquently states, "I found a pleasant pool where others find only pain." (TPT) His presence filled every void, healed every wound, satisfied every desire, comforted in every worry, and answered every question.
5How enriched are they who find their strength in the Lord; within their hearts are the highways of holiness! 6Even when their paths wind through the dark valley of tears, they dig deep to find a pleasant pool where others find only pain . He gives to them a brook of blessing filled from the rain of an outpouring. 7They grow stronger and stronger with every step forward, and the God of all gods will appear before them in Zion.
In response, I am giving Him "preeminence" in my life from this day forward. No more suggesting to Him what I think would be best, no more questioning if He is really listening or really does care, no more complaining or bemoaning where in life He has placed me right now, no more looking ahead, just quiet, peace-filled trust because He has certainly proven to me in more ways than I can count that He loves me and is trustworthy.